The Secret Lies Within
I recently had my friend send me a trailer of a movie "The Secret" she is trying to help me discover what I am good at outside of being an awesome Mommy, God Bless her. The clip was short and I feel an urgency to find this secret out, so I ordered the book. I can't wait till it gets here, I would love to take it with me to Florida. 
The thing is I already know that everyone has a hidden talent, that they are passionate about something, good at. I also know that you need to search within yourself to find that one special thing, and that no one can tell you what it is, help you discover it. My fear is that I will never find it or I have already and don't know it, that it wil be to late or if I find it that I will need to spend thousands of dollars to go back to school to acheive it. At 39 years old shouldn't I already know what it is? I do know many things about myself, but unfortunately they are not going to pay the bills, raise my confidence level or make me feel important or acheive the Hierarchy of needs.
How can being a great person, a fantastic mother, daughter and friend make money? I am filled to the brim with passion and love and have an incredible drive to do something, but have absolutely no idea what it is. I am a Nurse on paper, meaning in order to practice I would need to take my State Boards after 11 years of not practicing, I have a Medical Coding and Billing degree that I never used because I was rasing my kids and with 20 something more credits I could have my Social work degree, which means going back to school. I have excellent awards in every subject I have taken, my GPA is a 3.8-4.0, I have received perfect attendence and deans lists awards and many other things. My portfolio is amazing, but I am still not sure that the Medical field is for me. I am way too sensitive and if I should go back into Nursing I know in my heart that it would only hurt me as it did before, I have enough pain in my everyday life that I don't think it would be healthy for me to go down that road again. I can't see myself behind a desk all day either doing Medical Billing. The one thing I can see myself doing is Social work. I love people and am always trying to help them, they use to call me "Dear Teri" because whenever my friends or family had a problem they would call me. That is one of the reasons why I went to school for it. But in that field there is a very high burn out rate and again I am sensitive, not sure if I can listen to everyone's pain and not take it home with me.....
I need some serious help! The saga continues...................
Daisy