BELIEVE
I have to believe that everything will get better.
I ordered the book 'The Secret" and couldn't wait for it to get here. I went to Florida bummed out that it had not arrived in time for me to read it while I was away, hoping with the fresh air, no confusion or stress that I could get the most out of it. I came home to it sitting on my kitchen counter and as soon as I put my bags down I grabbed it and ran my fingers over the cover and thought to myself "This could be it, this may change everything, my life and the way I think"
It has now been 5 days and it sits on my night stand, with only 7 pages read. Let me explain. I absolutely love to read, it is one
of my many passions; if the world got rid of every book I would be heart broken, literally!
The main reason why I have a hard time picking it up right now is because the first time I laid eyes on it and the way my face beamed with happiness and hope was seen by Dm and his mother. They instantly killed the hope and wiped the smile off my face with their negativity on what they have heard about the book. I knew at that time that it would be in my best interest to let it sit for awhile until they had both forgotten about it and my desire to read it.
I did read the first 6 or 7 pages and learned 'The Secret" The power of attraction that's it. Amazing and true! I have always said that I thought our bodies were made up of energy, that what the human eye can see is just a carrier, our transporter, that we can choose to surround ourselves with positive people or negitive and that is what we become, not knowing at the time if what I felt was true or not, just thinking it. I have also said with the help and advice of my mother that the power of our own voices is huge, but what I never knew was that through our thoughts and the words we speak ourselves is what we "attract' it makes so much sense to me that I don't need to read the rest of the book, although I will!
My fear right now and the reason why I can not read the rest of the book is when I tried to speak to both DM and his mother about how I felt that they denied to me and themselves that they were very negitive people, not saying that I wasn't, but saying that we all were and for our babies sake that we should really start focusing more on how we come across and the way we speak around him. I told them both and this is truth that if I closed my eyes when MM speaks that I either heard Dm, myself or DP speaking and it scared me! We are molding his young mind and the way he speaks. His future and happiness I feel at this point is in our hands! Once again I was shot done and belittled, told to work on myself that I had the problem, that they were "Realists" not negative.
So my question is this..... I in the last 4 days have thought, spoke and breathed postive. Tried to turn every negitive situation around to make it positive. I self speak to myself and out loud even thow some around me may think I am crazy. But how do you try to "Attract" the positive, when everyone around you and your situation is negative and those who bring you down live with you?
Think Positive.... Pray.
Daisy