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daisydot had this to say:
Teri,
Now I am crying! That was beautiful. Keep your eyes open, believe in yourself and learn from your past. If you do these things, you will find the happiness you deserve. Take time to examine what you really want in life, and what you don't want. You have been through a lot and have always thought of everyone other than yourself in the process. Today is about you and the ones you love the most. What will make you happy. If you are happy, those around you will be too. I love you and I'm so proud to have you as my daughter. Love, Mom.- October 04, 2006 1:13 PM
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daisydot had this to say:
Mom please don't cry and if you do cry, cry because I am happy now and have come to terms with the past and am finally going to start living my life for myself, my children and those I cherish most. I am going to be going on the most wonderful journey with the ones I love, I will be successful because whatever it is I am going to do I will put love and passion into it, like with everything else I have done. I will no longer allow people to bring me down or abuse me in anyway. This is my gift to you, I will make you proud, and I may not be as happy as I would like to be at this moment, because I have a lot on my plate, but know this Mommy; I will! You are and always will be my Angel!
- October 04, 2006 5:52 PM
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Good Morning My Friends And Family
I was a total bum yesterday, but had to be. I did a lot of thinking. Just layed in my bed and stared out the window at my little animals friends, not depressed; just very content. I wrote down everything I need and want to do. Today is a new day, and I am looking forward to my first day of peace. With each day that goes by I will only get stronger. I just want to Thank the people who I thought of during this time I took for myself, because of their love and support I feel the way I feel today and everyday after today.
First is you Mom, you are by far my best friend; your love for me is so incredibly deep that I truly feel it in my soul, Thank you for being the father I never had and the best mother anyone could ever ask for, for allowing me to make mistakes and learn from them, for never leaving my side, for carrying me through all the hard times and sharing in my happiness; for dropping everything and being there for me when your life wasn't the greatest either, for the tears you have shed, and the beautiful smile you always have on your face when you see me. Thanks for being you, never change! You are my Angel! I love you with my whole heart! xoxo
Maddie, Thank you for always being there for me through the good times and the bad, for your positive words when everything around me was negative, the laughter and the love. Even though we can't talk as much as we would like to, I know you are there for me and always will be. You are truly so very special, I wish you knew how much. You have such a huge heart and a incredible soul, you always know what to say and how to say it. I wish I could see you everyday if even for a moment, that's how good I feel when you are near. I love you my friend! xoxo
My Special Friend, You have absolutely no idea what you have given to me, it is worth nothing in dollars; but means the most to me. You have given me hope, and strength, you have opened my mind, heart and soul in ways that I never thought possible. I feel that you are holding my hand through these bad times, not physically; but spiritually. You have touched me with your words and have listened to mine. I am so grateful to you in so many ways, and will forever consider you my friend for life. You will always be my Hero! I love you! xoxo
Michael, Thank you my love for making mommy smile each day with your words and unconditional love, for showing me what the meaning of simplicity is again, for giving me a reason to get out of bed each day; without you I would not be complete, for dancing with me when no one else will. You will always be my baby even though you are getting to be a big boy, the way you look into my eyes and tell me you love me touches my very soul. I love you! xoxo
Tia, Thank you for your honesty and for telling Mommy everything even though sometimes it is hard for me to absorb, never change. For pointing out to me that I was depressed when I was in denial, even though it hurt me at the time; I will always be grateful to you, you gave me a new life, a voice and my eyes back, for having one of the sweetest hearts I have ever known. You will always be my special baby, you were my first and words could never describe the love I have for you. I love you honey! xoxo
Pop, Thank you for being the father I never had, for treating me as if I were your daughter, for listening to me when you didn't have to, your great advice that may have took me awhile to apply it, but made so much sense when I did, but most of all for loving my Mom the way you do, so that I don't have to worry about her going through life without knowing it. Every little girl at some point in their lives have thought or dreamed of their wedding and Prince, I had always dreamed of my Mothers, thank you for making my dreams come true and for being "our" Prince. I love you! xoxo
PaPa Joe, Thank you for taking my pain away and giving me my life back, for always giving me a safe place to go, your home and heart. For never giving up on me or the deep love you have for me throughout those two years of not seeing me, for always acknowledging that I have two children, not one; for being the only one to think of my baby Tia and feeling her pain as well as my own. I love you! xoxo
Karen, Thank you for being my friend, for taking off the blinders and seeing what my life is truly like and the abuse I go through everyday I know it is hard for you because he is your nephew and I am sorry for that, for seeing and telling me how great of a mom I am to my children, for the laughter we share when we are together, and the mommy talk, and much, much more. I love you! xoxo
Elizabeth, Thank you for giving up the love of your life so that I could experience it myself, for the special gift I believe you have giving me. I can only imagine how sweet you were and can't wait to see you and hold you in Heaven. I told you last night as I whispered to you that I will never hurt your love and I mean that with all of my heart, but you know that already. Everything happens for a reason, I just wish you could have been spared; I know in my heart that you are in the most beautiful place dancing with your wings flowing around you, keep dancing and know you are thought of each and everyday! xoxo
Leslie, Thank you for the fire flies and all the simple things we shared, for being my best friend and for your love for me. I will never stop loving you, thinking of you or the joy of knowing that one day we will be together again. Every time I see a yellow rose, I see your beautiful face within the petals; I have not shared that with anyone else, just you my friend. I miss you so very much and your memory and ours will be with me until we meet again. I love you! xoxo
I could on forever with the people I would like to Thank for all they have done for me or the love they have given me, but the people above are the ones that have touched me the moment I meant them, heard of them or had the opportunity to have them in my life this far. I love you all! Keep smiling and take time to tap into the child in you if even for a moment a day, it feel so good! I love you all! Daisy