As I sit here and look at the time I can't believe that so much has happened in the last 5 hours. I went from giving my son dinner, to bathing him, and tucking him into bed with a snack, to hearing from my daughters father that he wanted to move his girlfriend in, and our daughter out; that he didn't love her and that he didn't feel guilty about it. After not seeing her for the last sixteen years, never a birthday card or a call to see if she was okay, not a penny for food or a simple I love you, he managed to spend 3 months out of 19 years and now he has had enough of her. His first daughter, the one he wanted so bad; the one who cried when I told him I was pregnant, my Tia. My heart is torn, I never felt pain like this; I can't even imagine how she will feel! When I came back inside the house I wasn't crying, there are no more tears; but hurt. I called DM down the stairs and he said "what do you want?" I said please come down here and he said I am tired Teri, what do you want? mad like always that I spoke to him. What I really wanted to say was "How could you possibly be tired? You haven't been with our son since Thursday, you went out with your friends on friday morning to a casino till 1am the next day had a great dinner and lots of fun and Sat and Sunday you were home painting your house, your choice! Layed in bed watching your porn all weekend, sleeping late, going to your friends for dinner etc etc but I encourage him to go have fun, to lighten up; I would never throw it in his face, but how dare him to ignore the fact that my baby was beaten up while he played all weekend, and never once asking how she was, but you say you love me; well if that's love then I will be more then happy to sit on my porch with my book alone! So he finally storms down like he is doing me a favor and I say "look at me, there are two choices 1 Tia comes back here so I can keep her safe or 2 I leave!" He tells me, no wait screams at me that my daughter is not allowed in HIS house. So what is that telling me? The moment he said that I don't think I was ever that upset in my entire 38 years and I have been through some scary, sad times. I looked at him and said I have two children and love them both, how could someone do that to a mother, a person? I knew he was cruel, but never evil. He tried to talk, but enough was said. I called my mom, cried until a whole box of tissues were gone, hyper ventilated and kicked into survival mode, something I have mastered! I know who I am now, I have a voice and no one I mean NO ONE will hurt or keep my babies from me ever again! He has a great lawyer and money and will try and take my baby, but I have the love and you can't buy that! Hopfullly someone will see that, and in the end I will have all I have in life under the same roof.

Everything happens for a reason. Daisy