Wednesday, September 27, 2006 | link | posted by daisydot at 6:34 PM

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Maddie had this to say:: You should have T read this.; September 28, 2006 8:57 AM
daisydot had this to say:: Someday I will. I try to tell her, but right now she isn't doing her best. No need to add to it!; September 29, 2006 2:54 AM

I Loved You Before You Were Born
I remember the day I found out I was pregnant with you, I ran home from the clinic; no, I skipped! I got on the ugly yellow phone in our kitchen and called the one person I knew would understand me, the one who loved me the most and would love you the same; my mom. She was at work, but it didn't matter because where ever she was I knew she would drop everything for me, I couldn't wait to tell her, and as soon as I heard her voice I said "Mom, I am pregnant and I am scared!" and she said "Teri, no matter what you decide to do I love you and will always be there for you, you do have choices and a big decision to make; one that will change your life as you know it forever, but whatever you decide I will be by your side. Just knowing that my mom, your Grandmother would be at my side, and saying to myself that if I could be half the mother to you as my mother was to me that no matter what you and I would be ok! I then said "Mom, I want to have my baby, as I touched my small swollen belly I whispered "I already love you!"
My beautiful Tia Marie, my sweet, loving soul; I know you are having a hard time right now being without Mommy, and I can't tell you how very sad that makes me, but although I am not physically there; I still am by your side, always have been and always will! You are an intelligent girl and I am sorry that I have not allowed you to grow up, that I did everything for you and held your hand for too long, I am not perfect and was the best mother I could be. It is time to grow up, that doesn't mean I will stop loving you, but that you need to be more independent. I don't like to compare you and I, because we are so different; but in many ways alike, but I made a huge decision when I was 18 years old, your age; to give you life and I didn't want anyone's help I did it on my own! I kicked into survival mode because I had you growing inside of me, yes I had my mother, but she had already raised her kids on her own. I went to Nursing school in the morning and worked during the night, my only regret is that by doing this you and I didn't bond the way I would have liked, but I wanted you to have everything I didn't; not knowing at the time that you would grow up just like me, not wanting the materials things, but the love. You were my special baby and still are, I do love you; more then any words could say. I really thought by you being with your dad after 16 years would be a good thing, because I know other then Poppie you never had any male figures in your life, and lets face it every little girl and women needs her daddy. I knew how you felt when you looked at DM and Michael and their relationship, it hurt! I was there Tia, you know what my father was like, I was daddies little girl; but he never even knew my birthday, anyone can have a pet name! And I owe it to him on why I have chosen the wrong men in my life this far. I don't want you to live in my shoes like I have lived in Nanners shoes. I want you to know true love and how to laugh from the belly. You are so much like me Tia, you love the simple things, the hugs and the holding. Let go of the past as I have and live for today and never, ever forget that "I love you around the world and back again!" No one can take that from us! You are my Angel!

about me

Age: 38
Gender: female
Astrological Sign: Pisces
Zodiac Year: Monkey
Occupation: self-employed
Location: highland mills : New York : United States

I am a 38 year old mother of two beautiful children. I live 35 minutes out side of New York City, I grew up in The Finger Lakes area; so you can say that I am a little Country girl living in the big City (or should I say near the big city) I was a Nurse until 1997, I was hurt on the job (back injury) which stopped me from going back into the field I was in; which was Geriatrics.

I could of worked in a Doctors office or specialized in another field, but my heart was with the elderly. I absolutely love them! I am now self-employed and a stay at home Mom, I feel very lucky that I am able to be here with my children. I care alot about people and cherish the friends and family that I have.

I love to give, but have a hard time receiving, I love to laugh and I sure know how to cry; I am real and fun, and love the simple things that life has to offer, and last but not least I really don't like to shop! lol

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